Among my resolutions/commitments to 2015 is blogging again.  Obviously, it’s taken me a few days to get serious about this.  There are explanations for the delay – all of which involve work.  Still, I should do this.  I once had an online blog that I managed to keep very active for about 7 years.  Then part of my world came to an end and I changed.  Seems time that I find my voice again.

I’ve been thinking about how I think about my world.  How do I categorize events, thoughts, opinions, emotions – the things that make up my mental life?  Despite outward appearances, it is my inner mental life that consumes the vast majority of my time.  And trust me, I have a big outer life.

What do I know 2015 will bring?  Physical changes – aging, the need to address some health concerns, people coming and going by virtue of birth, death, relocation, choice.  Mental changes – a strange combination of both increased tolerance and intolerance, willingness to let go of some things I’ve not been able to let go of, acknowledgement of a slight slowing in my mental response times – and how I’ll fight to stop that.  Emotional changes – re-evaluating relationships, self-perception, my capacity to love and be loved, facing fears.  More stuff – but that’s a start.

Right now we’re in limbo about my brother in law who at 57 has spots showing on a CT scan of the liver and the lungs.  This could go south very, very quickly.  Sister survives cancer, only to lose her previously healthy-as-a-horse husband.

House is in limbo as the gutting of a 35 year old kitchen is in progress (pics to come).  If all goes well, we will have cabinets on the 15-16th, followed by new flooring, then appliances, and then countertops (hubby and I disagree on the order of the last two).  Once finished, that room will stand as a monument to the crossing over of mid-decade and will herald my husband’s 7th decade of life (when you turn 60, you enter your 7th decade of life – shocking, but true).

10 min of writing.  First update of 2015 done.  This works.